i can't sleep

Usually, I get home form class on Tuesday nights and it doesn't take much for me to fall asleep. Yet, tonight I can't. In class I started feeling sick and I thought that maybe it was just because I had to present but it hasn't gone away. Was my sudden burst of healthy-good feeling only temporary? Is the illness still lingering? The illness that has no name.

I feel so tired, so sick that I want to cry and tears actually came out. I have cried more in the last two weeks than I have in the last two years.

But I sit here and stare at the computer scene, lost for words. I always have so much to say but never fully say it. I've never fully said anything.

All I can say tonight is that I am tired, frustrated, my stomach is in knots.