will all the work ever be done?
i decided today that i miss the days where i didn't have to take my work home with me. the days when i could clock out and not worry until i clocked back in. but alas, i find myself scribbling notes in class about work, creating program designs in my head while driving, and fighting with excel at all hours of the day and night - link damn cells, link.
i'm creating social change. i'm creating social change. i'm creating social change.
i'm building community. i'm building community. i'm building community.
repeat in head as work drives you crazy
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Sunday, February 18, 2007
sweet home chicago
I made it back from Austin - refreshed, alive, and exhausted. It was a great time. I thought that it was a doomed trip in the beginning but then something happened and things turned out to be great.
Austin is fantastic. Sixth Street provided bar after bar with live music. Although it was somewhat sad that not many more people were out and about. I am used to bars filling and dance floors being cramped. However for the most part it was only us in the bars. ONe of my favorite spots was the dueling piano bar and the other was the local gay bar. I think the fun of it was more about the people I was with than the place.
But I am not sure what happened or even how it happened but somehow I am refreshed and recharged. Maybe it was the setting. Maybe it was the people. Maybe it was education. Maybe it was night after night - drinking - dancing - bar hopping - and even quite a bit of flirting and girls flirting right back with me. Who knows what it was. But I am a much happier, healthier, and refreshed woman. Maybe it was because I fell for someone in Texas and even though its never gonna work it was fun while it lasted.
But it is nice to be home. It was nice to fly over the lights and city.
although I return to school tomarrow so maybe it will all change.
Austin is fantastic. Sixth Street provided bar after bar with live music. Although it was somewhat sad that not many more people were out and about. I am used to bars filling and dance floors being cramped. However for the most part it was only us in the bars. ONe of my favorite spots was the dueling piano bar and the other was the local gay bar. I think the fun of it was more about the people I was with than the place.
But I am not sure what happened or even how it happened but somehow I am refreshed and recharged. Maybe it was the setting. Maybe it was the people. Maybe it was education. Maybe it was night after night - drinking - dancing - bar hopping - and even quite a bit of flirting and girls flirting right back with me. Who knows what it was. But I am a much happier, healthier, and refreshed woman. Maybe it was because I fell for someone in Texas and even though its never gonna work it was fun while it lasted.
But it is nice to be home. It was nice to fly over the lights and city.
although I return to school tomarrow so maybe it will all change.
Thursday, February 08, 2007
t odo
I'm taking off on my first ever, offical buisness trip...all expenses paid to Austin, Texas. Very exciting. I have been runnign to do lists through my head all week in preperation....
To Do Before Leaving:
laundry
pack
email prof and tell them why i am not in class
pay bills
To Do While Gone:
learn
socialize
mingle
meet people
relax
enjoy my time
enjoy the warm weather
forget all my worries and woes
To Do Upon Return:
come back to reality
But really, I am excited. I wont have to justify why i do what i do or how much work is actually involved or explain my frustrations. I love being around professionals in this field because they get it. And it seems not many people in my life get it right now.
And to top my day off..I was hit on at Jewell TWICE! Still got the moves I guess. Maybe I met the new love of my life? Highly doubt it but damn, makes a girl feel good.
To Do Before Leaving:
laundry
pack
email prof and tell them why i am not in class
pay bills
To Do While Gone:
learn
socialize
mingle
meet people
relax
enjoy my time
enjoy the warm weather
forget all my worries and woes
To Do Upon Return:
come back to reality
But really, I am excited. I wont have to justify why i do what i do or how much work is actually involved or explain my frustrations. I love being around professionals in this field because they get it. And it seems not many people in my life get it right now.
And to top my day off..I was hit on at Jewell TWICE! Still got the moves I guess. Maybe I met the new love of my life? Highly doubt it but damn, makes a girl feel good.
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Monday, February 05, 2007
sometime i wanna cry
but nothing at all comes out
i want to find a door
and get me out
and i wanna feel less than i do
but id like to care more about
what im putting myself through
---everything you get by melissa ferrick
The classroom walls are caving in around me lately. I just can get away form the school fast enough. This is a new experience. I've never felt this way. I'm not entirely sure what to think of it. But I don't know if I can really take on the rest of the semester...seriously...not sure at all.
but nothing at all comes out
i want to find a door
and get me out
and i wanna feel less than i do
but id like to care more about
what im putting myself through
---everything you get by melissa ferrick
The classroom walls are caving in around me lately. I just can get away form the school fast enough. This is a new experience. I've never felt this way. I'm not entirely sure what to think of it. But I don't know if I can really take on the rest of the semester...seriously...not sure at all.
Friday, February 02, 2007
random thoughts
- I love Melissa Ferrick.
- She's so damn nice. She drove her ass all the way to Chicago from Detroit without much sleep and played the Borders show exhausted...she looked like she was at the "I'm so exhausted I 'm not exhausted stage" and she signed albums and took pictures so happily. I mean I wanted to tell her to take a nap before the night show. I hope she did. She's so kind to us fans.
- I got to experience Melissa Ferrick playing live, right in front of me TWICE this past weekend. I'm not so sure life could get any better.
- Melissa Ferrick is my favorite.
- Bitch opened for Melissa and all I can say is that she rocks my world. When she and Animal broke up I thought it was the end. But then she appeared and I remembered why I like her so much. Can I tell you how excited I was to hear "Pussy Maifesto"? I love that song - live.
- I started my dose of the new HPV vaccine. Apparently not a whole lot of women are getting it. This surprises me but then again...I found out I have to get all my doses completed by my 26th Birthday. Or the insurance wont cover it. So thankfully I dragged my ass into the doctor at the right time because 6 months from today I turn 26.
- I have attempted to seek theropy. Because I know I need it. Fuck we all need it. But I have been waitlisted everywhere I fucking go. Seriously. I have been waitlisted on a waitlist. How the hell does that work? And each intake appointment they look and me and pretty much say it's a wonder I'm not more fucked up than I already am. So I suppose that assistence in that area is not really going to come. Because it's a bad sign when they put people on a waitlist to get on the wait list. And yes, I have tried other places.
- Work is work and while I still love it, it's causing me some frustrations. There just isn't enough time to get it all done.
- School is school and while I still love it, it's causing me frustartions, There just isn't enough time to get it all done.
- I really do enjoy most of my classes this semester.
- I love Smuckers Uncrustables. I really do. No homemade pb and j sandwich can compare. Seriously. It just can't.
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
i don't understand
...what i'm doing wrong and why you can't say hello to me. i'm trying, really i am.
Monday, January 22, 2007
here's to...
roe v wade
and hopes that we elect a new president that will uphold our rights, fix the wrongdoings of GW and his people, and bring an end to this war.
choice is important. reproductive rights are important. speak up about them or they'll go away.
peace
and hopes that we elect a new president that will uphold our rights, fix the wrongdoings of GW and his people, and bring an end to this war.
choice is important. reproductive rights are important. speak up about them or they'll go away.
peace
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Friday, January 12, 2007
reading minds
I wish I could read minds. I wish I could know what others are thinking. I wish I knew because usually I have no clue. And that drives me mad. Mad I tell you.
I had a few weird moments this week, moments I was dreading because I didn't know how to apporach them but I suppose it was fine in the end? I don't know because I can't read minds! I just have no flipping clue.
I wonder if other can read my mind?
I had a few weird moments this week, moments I was dreading because I didn't know how to apporach them but I suppose it was fine in the end? I don't know because I can't read minds! I just have no flipping clue.
I wonder if other can read my mind?
Monday, January 08, 2007
work work work
If one more person asks me what I plan to do with my degree and what I plan to do when I actually get around to graduating, I AM GOING TO SCREAM!
It's been an interesting experience at work. I love it beyound anything I could ever imagine. I feel like I am making a difference but sometimes making a difference is a frustrating task. I am constantly trying to break down the "this is how we've always done it" barrier and intriduce things like looking at why people aren't coming to join our organization. I am constantly bringing up the issues of race, class, gender, culture, sexuality, and the list could keep going.
Yet, bottom line, this is it. This is what I want to do. I want to work in a type of social service and that is CAMP! I see camp as a tool for educzation and service in our community. I believe it instills one of the best qualities for any person to have...COMMUNITY.
Along with directing, I also want to keynote and consult. There aren't enough women in the field and I am determined to change that.
Continuing my education is being done because I want to learn. I already have the job and already can support myself. I am going because I need to learn more about the community of this country and globe. Which is why I am studying what I am studying. It's only to help me make more of an impact.
So in the middle of this crazy schedule and work of mine and when I am feeling like no one really cares about what we could really do to help the world and these girls, and I am asked what I plan on doing, I get so damn frustrated. THIS IS A REAL JOB! IT TAKES A LOT OF WORK! I GET PAID FOR IT! I HAVE BENEFITS! WHAT ELSE WILL MAKE IT REAL ENOUGH TO DO FOREVER? WHAT I ASK< WHAT?
(Really the caps are not meant for people reading this but how I would prefer to say it to the people who ask and I politiely respond)
It's been an interesting experience at work. I love it beyound anything I could ever imagine. I feel like I am making a difference but sometimes making a difference is a frustrating task. I am constantly trying to break down the "this is how we've always done it" barrier and intriduce things like looking at why people aren't coming to join our organization. I am constantly bringing up the issues of race, class, gender, culture, sexuality, and the list could keep going.
Yet, bottom line, this is it. This is what I want to do. I want to work in a type of social service and that is CAMP! I see camp as a tool for educzation and service in our community. I believe it instills one of the best qualities for any person to have...COMMUNITY.
Along with directing, I also want to keynote and consult. There aren't enough women in the field and I am determined to change that.
Continuing my education is being done because I want to learn. I already have the job and already can support myself. I am going because I need to learn more about the community of this country and globe. Which is why I am studying what I am studying. It's only to help me make more of an impact.
So in the middle of this crazy schedule and work of mine and when I am feeling like no one really cares about what we could really do to help the world and these girls, and I am asked what I plan on doing, I get so damn frustrated. THIS IS A REAL JOB! IT TAKES A LOT OF WORK! I GET PAID FOR IT! I HAVE BENEFITS! WHAT ELSE WILL MAKE IT REAL ENOUGH TO DO FOREVER? WHAT I ASK< WHAT?
(Really the caps are not meant for people reading this but how I would prefer to say it to the people who ask and I politiely respond)
Friday, January 05, 2007
To Do..
I get to be on TV. And then I get to make a presentation to a group of semi-important people and then I get to speak at a buisness breakfast meeting about my job and what I do and why I do it and why they should donate.... this job only gets better.
why does going to taget....
have to cost so much?
Seriously...why? Why do I end up buying more than I go in for and spend more than I ever needed to? Why?
I mean all I did was go in to buy some new notebooks for the new semester...and then I saw socks on clearence and then there were the retractable highlighters.....and it keeps going...but I did purchase a new schoolbag on clearence and that made my day super happy. Anyhow...I really wish I has some more substance to this post but I suppose I don't.
Seriously...why? Why do I end up buying more than I go in for and spend more than I ever needed to? Why?
I mean all I did was go in to buy some new notebooks for the new semester...and then I saw socks on clearence and then there were the retractable highlighters.....and it keeps going...but I did purchase a new schoolbag on clearence and that made my day super happy. Anyhow...I really wish I has some more substance to this post but I suppose I don't.
Monday, January 01, 2007
it's been a relaxing week...
...and I am about to get ready for work in the morning. I have had the week off and have had a most enjoyable time visiting with friends and exploring this great city I live in. It's been a long time since I have said screw it to what really needs to get done and just enjoy yourself. As much as I am dreading waking up tomorrow and having to face hwat needs to be done - the break was very much needed.
I feel very focused right now. Focused on my life and my job and most importantly school. I am ready to take on the next semester. I found out that I need to take more classes next semester than I orginally thought I would, therefore creating a most busy semester ahead. In addition to getting all the crap I need to do at work done, I also really want to do well this semester. I really do. Which means I need to focus. I would also like to get more involved in my school and meet some more people around here where I live. Wish me luck on this adventure of mine...it's bound to be non-stop fun till May.
On a whole other subject - my favorite news story headline I saw on my news roll on my homepage the other day....it read....are you ready
"Tornado scare sends Bush running for cover"
Yes, I was quite amused...imagining him running scared....hehehe. (I know he was most likely not running but I will imagine it nonetheless)
I was also very annoyed to hear he was sleeping when Saddam was being executed. I feel like he tends to check himself out when shit is going down around the world. I mean I guess the man needed sleep but really, it was 9pm and you can't say that the USA has to be careful and are on alert and then go to bed. Although I suppose he can sleep peacefully with all his secruity while the rest of America is fearing what will happen next in the world.
Oh Georgie...when is your term up?
Now I must go dig for clean clothes for the morning!!!!!
peace
I feel very focused right now. Focused on my life and my job and most importantly school. I am ready to take on the next semester. I found out that I need to take more classes next semester than I orginally thought I would, therefore creating a most busy semester ahead. In addition to getting all the crap I need to do at work done, I also really want to do well this semester. I really do. Which means I need to focus. I would also like to get more involved in my school and meet some more people around here where I live. Wish me luck on this adventure of mine...it's bound to be non-stop fun till May.
On a whole other subject - my favorite news story headline I saw on my news roll on my homepage the other day....it read....are you ready
"Tornado scare sends Bush running for cover"
Yes, I was quite amused...imagining him running scared....hehehe. (I know he was most likely not running but I will imagine it nonetheless)
I was also very annoyed to hear he was sleeping when Saddam was being executed. I feel like he tends to check himself out when shit is going down around the world. I mean I guess the man needed sleep but really, it was 9pm and you can't say that the USA has to be careful and are on alert and then go to bed. Although I suppose he can sleep peacefully with all his secruity while the rest of America is fearing what will happen next in the world.
Oh Georgie...when is your term up?
Now I must go dig for clean clothes for the morning!!!!!
peace
Sunday, December 24, 2006
Friday, December 22, 2006
27 in 2007
This year I intend to follow through with this...wish me luck!
1. Keep my office organized
2. Send out holiday cards
3. Reconnect with my camp family
4. Play with the kids in my family more often
5. Stop procrastinating on school work
6. Read more
7. Spend less money on stupid stuff
8. Ride my bike more
9. Keep my car in good shape
10. Organize my bills and other important paperwork
11. Complete my goals I set at work
12. Go out on the town more
13. Work on my confrontation
14. Stop gossipping
15. Focus on school
16. Be more honest with my family
17. Throw things away
18. Buy less books until I have read all the books I own
19. Eat healthier
20. Drink more water
21. Put my clothes away properly right after I remove them from the dryer
22. Keep my room clean and organized
23. Volunteer more
24. Fix my eye issues
25. Read the news more often
26. Eat breakfast everyday
27. COMPLETE AT LEAST 50% of these (I am trying to think realisticly)
1. Keep my office organized
2. Send out holiday cards
3. Reconnect with my camp family
4. Play with the kids in my family more often
5. Stop procrastinating on school work
6. Read more
7. Spend less money on stupid stuff
8. Ride my bike more
9. Keep my car in good shape
10. Organize my bills and other important paperwork
11. Complete my goals I set at work
12. Go out on the town more
13. Work on my confrontation
14. Stop gossipping
15. Focus on school
16. Be more honest with my family
17. Throw things away
18. Buy less books until I have read all the books I own
19. Eat healthier
20. Drink more water
21. Put my clothes away properly right after I remove them from the dryer
22. Keep my room clean and organized
23. Volunteer more
24. Fix my eye issues
25. Read the news more often
26. Eat breakfast everyday
27. COMPLETE AT LEAST 50% of these (I am trying to think realisticly)
Thursday, December 14, 2006
so today...
I found out I went 139 minutes over my limit on my cell phone. Damn.
I want to see this bill and see if its true.
I want to see this bill and see if its true.
Sunday, December 10, 2006
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